Posted by Donna Louise on December 5, 2004, at 20:35:12
In reply to OK, so what are we all going to do?, posted by Racer on December 4, 2004, at 14:18:19
I would like to respond to contemplation #8 about why the body is such a big deal. I have done alot of thinking about that one. And beyond the usual societal and advertising pressures, for me it has to do with power. When I was young I had a really nice body, I guess I still do for being 50 although I think it is too fat of course. But I had alot of power over men with it and and got alot of attention that way. My self esteem was so low that my body was the ony thing I thought was of interest. I could also make myself feel I was better than other women because the reality of it was that I was afraid of them all. It seemed to take away some of the fear. So needless to say that as I have gotten older and the meds have put on the weight, I have been pretty freaked out. My whole 40th decade was about coming to terms with this and I have made some progress but I have a way to go. The newest med is working so well for me but it notices every calorie that goes in so I can't get away with anything. And I am terrified that I will just keep on gaining. This is the first time in years that I have felt this good and it is putting weight on me. The universe just keeps giving it to me, I haven't learned all my lessons yet!!
At any rate, that is just one of the body things I have been considering for awhile. I don't think any change can occur without awareness first so I am glad to be aware at any rate. And glad for this board too. And all of you so brave to post. It is still scary even in this anonymous setting.Hey, as I was proof reading this I realized that I think the only acceptable body is a perfect one. Why can't I think if this body now as at least being good enough? I think I was getting there with that concept until the new med started me gaining. I hope by cutting the calories I can at least arrest it.
poster:Donna Louise
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