Posted by i'm_ok on March 8, 2005, at 14:27:41
In reply to Re: I thought i was ok until.... » i'm_ok, posted by Maxime on March 6, 2005, at 20:02:24
> I didn't word my question very well ... sorry. I was wondering what came first ... the eating disoder or the depression. But you did answer my question in your response.
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> I'm sorry you are going through so much right now.
> I am concerned about how you are feeling after purging because you are at risk for passing out and aspirating your vomit. It sounds like your electrolytes are out of whack. And if the only way you can stop yourself from purging is by not eating, then you are really caught in the web.
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> Why can't you tell your doctor? Do you want help? Because you don't have things under control and you are working and taking 3 courses AND you are a single mother. Most people would collapse from those stresses alone.
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> I know it's hard to admit these things to your doctor. Sometimes I have had to write a letter and give it to my doctor because I cannot articulate what I need to say or I lose the nerve. Maybe if you wrote out how you are feeling it would help. Even if you don't give the letter to her, just writing everything out can help.
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> Please continue to post ... I am worried about you. You can send me a Babble Mail any time.
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> Maxime****************************
HI Maxime,
Thanks again for your concern. Its kind of hard sometimes when you can talk to people you are close with about certain things but not about everything and this is one subject i dont talk to anyone about. I was glad to find this message board. I would have to re-word my comment though. I wouldnt exactly say that the only way i can keep from purging is not to eat. That is only the case when I can tell that I am going to over eat, I dont know why but there are times that I know I will over eat and even though i am aware and am thinking about it i cant change it... I still eat like a fiend. it is those times when i purge..i can bring a salad to work for lunch and not feel that i have to purge but i have gone out to lunch with co-workers, felt like i ate too much so had to come back here and find a bathroom no one uses in order to get rid of it. talk about hard..having to do this in public. but if i can not eat at those times i am better off. I guess at this time i would rather save myself the embarassment of not saying anything until it gets out of control. the letter writing idea is good but I think I would rather change doctors to one that I dont know and tell them rather than the one that knows me. weird isnt it? anyway its been three days since i have had to purge so i feel better about that.
: )
~Y
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