Posted by Racer on September 11, 2006, at 20:56:04
In reply to Re: Bah! Realized the flaw... » Racer, posted by Dinah on September 11, 2006, at 18:48:56
I don't know what my husband was saying, and couldn't -- in the moment -- figure out what to ask about it. (Still not entirely sure how I'd ask...) He did know about both expenditures, since we'd gone out together looking for what to buy. We picked out the rolling backpack together, but he didn't like the black one, which is the one I'd have ordered, so I didn't order it. He said, when I told him that, that his opinion on that really didn't matter, that I could have gone ahead...
Money is a sore topic between us, and I'm terrible about it. I'm not working, and didn't earn as much as he did even when I was working. (Think: maybe 30% of what he earns, even in my best year.) He says things about money, like telling me that he'll pay for me to go to school, and not to worry about it not being worth it -- longer story -- but then every so often he comes out with something absolutely counter to that idea.
And sometimes I get the very strong feeling that I'm supposed to do all the housework because I don't earn money. He denies that, but he also doesn't ever do ANYTHING around here to help. That's a real problem for me, especially when I'm in "shut down" mode, like now, and can't do anything myself...
{sigh} I dunno...
Yes, I do know. I'm depressed, but honestly think pretty well about myself. The depression is a bigger and bigger problem, too. I'm getting to wanting to cry even when I'm alone and not trying to communicate with anyone else. Guess that means it's progressing... Ugh.
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