Posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 0:39:05
In reply to fayeroe, posted by kara lynne on April 6, 2004, at 19:22:28
to die in my sleep. My friend asked me if I was suicidal and I said, No, I just don't want to live without Alice. There is a distinction, if slight.
I know it sounds over the top, but that little animal was all I came home to at night. She was my comfort, she gave me a purpose I really don't feel any longer. Of course I have things I am supposed to do to make a better life, but I just don't care about them. I don't know how to part with a creature I have been inseparable from for the last ten years.
I don't understand how my employer expects me to put on a happy face and make sixty calls about easter open meditation on Sunday. She is supposed to be someone who would understand this, and she just doesn't seem to. I know there is nothing anyone can do. I know it's not good to wallow, but neither can I just buck up and move on.
It's been one week tonight and I feel worse as the realization sinks in. It looks like I will never see Alice again.
poster:kara lynne
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