Posted by kara lynne on April 14, 2004, at 21:10:41
In reply to Re: My cat is gone., posted by rainyday on April 13, 2004, at 20:29:52
It is two weeks today. This has wrecked me. I called a therapist and asked his fees; he chortled jovially and said, 'They're high, really high'. When he told me it was $160 an hour I started to cry. He said, 'Well, I'm glad we got that dealt with right up front!' I was speechless. He gave me the name of someone else, but she is also pretty high.
I found out yesterday that the phone number on all the fliers we put up was incorrect. It was one digit off and no one, including myself, caught it. It was as if the final ray of hope had vanished. Even if someone had found my Alice, the number on the fliers was an 'invalid pager'. I feel like everything was working against me, including the rain that came right after she disappeared, which couldn't have been worse timing. It rarely rains here, but it did for two nights after she left.
I miss her desperately. She was all I had, my comfort, my company. I honestly don't want to live right now. I won't carry it out myself, but I wouldn't mind if I vanished as well.
poster:kara lynne
thread:332149
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