Posted by RoseyReel on October 15, 2004, at 14:20:57
In reply to My son died suddenly on August 26, 2004, posted by RoseyReel on October 14, 2004, at 13:03:44
Over the past 6 months, before my son's death on 8/26, I had begun the art of "reborning" dolls. It is quite a lengthy process and involves patient practice and I had finally approached artist level and decided to begin selling them. I still love doing it, but I seem to reach a certain level of completion on any project and cannot bring myself to follow through.
I am definitley in a cloud here that restricts my view to the end of the path. I have myself under pressure to complete projects for the holiday season which is now uppon me, in order to begin recouping my expenses.
Not to mention not being able to function well in other areas. I knew that the the worst would come after my son's viewing and all the business and preparation it entailed. However, I now often feel absolutely immobile.
Though I am past "blame" and have reached acceptance of his death, I seem quite stuck in this useless inability to perform routine tasks that do not require absolute concentration.
I am thinking that it may have something to do with avoiding normalcy and need a way around this.
Any advice on dealing with my loss of functionality? (Is that a word?)
poster:RoseyReel
thread:402986
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