Posted by Dinah on July 1, 2003, at 13:34:56
In reply to therapist on vacation, posted by Penny on July 1, 2003, at 11:43:41
Mine leaves for a bit over a week next week. Europe, so I can't leave a message for him if I need him. I always get scared. So far it hasn't occurred to me that something might happen to him. I guess it's that old thing where you think your mom is indestructible or something.
We talked again about having a backup for when he's gone. He's going to talk to the therapist he has in mind. That is if he remembers. Which isn't all that likely. He said we could set up a session with all three of us to introduce me.
And you know what? Now I'm scared and not sure if I want it. I'm afraid the new guy won't make me feel safe, and I'll feel that much more dependent on my therapist. And I'm afraid the new guy will make me feel safe. And I have no idea why that scares me, but it does. My therapist says the fear seems perfectly reasonable to him - the fear that I'll find out that he's not as important to me as I think he is. But I don't understand that a bit. :(
Oh well, he'll probably forget and I'll be relieved until he's actually gone, and then I'll be nervous as a cat.
Drat.
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