Posted by crushedout on March 3, 2004, at 20:13:29
she gave me this chart to fill out when i have the urge to cut. so i filled it out. when i saw her this week, she asked me about it, and then demanded to see it. i wrote on the chart that i wanted to cut because i knew she didn't want me to and that i enjoyed the negative attention. that made her laugh, but she also then said she wasn't going to respond because it was clear that her responses were encouraging me to engage in the behavior. she told me to continue with the chart.now when i was doing it, i didn't know she was going to be reading it so i put some really honest, embarrassing stuff in there. her demanding to see it both mortified me and kind of turned me on. so now i feel like acting out so i can fill in the chart and get more attention. this seems messed up. i think this chart thing's a bad idea. but so is everything she does it seems. do you think she should just ignore the si'ing? maybe that would be the best strategy.
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thread:319906
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