Posted by B2chica on May 12, 2004, at 10:00:03
In reply to Re: What is it like to be bi-polar?, posted by Angel Girl on May 12, 2004, at 5:59:58
> Thanks for everybody's opinions. I feel my meds are doing absolutely nothing for me.
-first, you answered thisone with your comment below of getting 2nd (or 3rd, 4th etc) opinions-Good For You!
>I'm severely depressed and feel my life is never going to change. I feel so hopeless and lonely with no self-worth or self-esteem.
Unfortunately there will be times like this, but know that with help (docs, friends, family etc) you WILL get better, you won't feel so hopeless OR lonely.
> I'm going to try and get a 2nd opinion on my meds. I can't understand why the ones I'm taking aren't doing anything for me except keeping me alive. I used to be extremely suicidal and I often wish that God had not saved me from myself.
Boy reading this gave me chills. I can't tell you how many times i've prayed to just let me die. To save everyone from me, the pain i cause them. That i've cursed myself for being so d@mn slow and stupid to not have completed the one job i should.
PLEASE know that we here UNDERSTAND these feelings. One thing you should be proud of is that you are expressing these feelings outwardly. You are no longer keeeping these in. The right med combo will come in time. i realize that knowledge doesn't make the 'now' any easier, but it's true. Please hang on tight, if you don't think you can, turn to us, call your pdoc, or Please go to the ER and get help. You are worth it Angel Girl, Please. There is so much waiting for you.> I don't have a therapist, so I'm looking for one but it has to be one that is covered by the government, or else I can't afford it.
is there anyone helping you with this? ask your GP or pdoc. they should be able to help you with this.
> I often wonder what the point of living is. :(
> Angel Girlthe point? God placed your soul here for a reason. to touch other souls, through your joy, pain, and daily works you touch SO many lives. Just look at all you've touched JUST by posting here. Babble would not be so great if it weren't for each of the beautiful people that gather here, both in pained spirits and in joyous.
You bring something to this place, something very unique, something bright, something touching, something specifically 'Angel Girl'.
NEVER forget that.
Love,
B2c.
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