Posted by Jadah on July 15, 2004, at 19:07:32
In reply to Re: I'm in love with my therapist » tinydancer, posted by Dinah on October 10, 2003, at 7:10:36
I am soooo confused. My therapist is trying to keep things the way they were but we still have "unexpected" sex sometimes. It scares me because in the beginning he said that this couldnt go on because he would go insane from cheating on his wife. I want him so bad that I dont say 'NO", but each time we are together sexually I fear hes going to be the one to abandon me and say "I cant see you anymore". I would literally die without him. Its so hard to see him professionally and not want to be with him. Thank you for your resoponses. I was hoping to hear from you. I wanted to let you all know that it is one thing to have feelings but its another thing to act on them. I am just as responsible as he is. I led him on for years, slowly realling him in like a fish, preying of his weaknesses. His profession is one thing, but he is still a human with human emotions. Im not saying it is right what we have been doing, on the contarary, but it has taught me some valuable life lessons. I just want you all to know that your fantasies are real, normal, justifiable- hang onto them, but remember, your therapist is human, they are not a therapist 24-7. The more I got to know my therapist on a personal level the more I saw his mood swings, personal points of view, flaws. It was a major blow because I thought he was "perfect" . Sometimes I wish all I had were my fantasies, they were so much better when I was in control of things. I really believe that I was in love with the IDEA of him, which is not realistic in real life. I do understand where all of you are at in your feelings, I was once there too. Very confused and scared now, even though I do cherish those moments we share together.How much longer though before this all ends and I feel the ultimate hurt and betrayal???
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