Posted by Miss Honeychurch on July 20, 2004, at 9:26:49
In reply to Re: I mean, my post was for Jadah » Jadah, posted by Joslynn on July 20, 2004, at 8:46:42
Jadah,
It's hard to objectively answer your question about what I would do if the door were open. I am very attracted to my T, both physically and mentally. And I imagine all sorts of scenarios all the time. However, I tend to think that if I were actually presented with the opportunity to ACT on those fantasies, I would run screaming from the room.
I idealize my T so much and I am one of those people who prefer the fantasy over reality since reality is such a let down. I would also be devestated I believe if my T initiated anything because then I would know that he would not have my best interests at heart. I would know that he was not a professional. And I would lose the one relationship in my life where it is all about ME (sounds ridiculous I know).
I am also at the point now (after a year in therapy) where I feel I actually DESERVE the best care possible. And if any boundary crossings appeared I would know I was not receiving the care I deserved.
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