Posted by Wildflower on July 22, 2004, at 12:34:03
In reply to Somebody's always watching me, posted by pretty_paints on July 20, 2004, at 11:49:39
I think I understand what you're talking about but I'm not sure.
I have a few people from my past that "haunt" me. I can't help but think about what they're doing now or if they would like the person that I've turned into. I find myself buying certain things or doing things that would have impressed them if they were still around. It's like I want to call them or run into them and say "look at me now". They're long gone now and instead of letting go, I still hope that one day we'll cross paths again and this time things will work. They also appear in my dreams - frequently.
In my case, it may be that I haven't found that connection with anyone else and I'm still holding on to the perception of what we had. There was a reason things didn't work out but it's difficult to remember that. In my opinion, views of the past are aften delusional.
Anyway, they say that we long to impress others (real or imaginary) because we have no faith in ourselves - low self esteem. Some look to other for happiness (including me) instead of looking within. In the end, we only have to impress ourselves. Easier said than done though.
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