Posted by thewrite1 on February 15, 2005, at 11:51:58
I shared my little epiphany with my T on Sat. I would have thought it would have given us much to talk about, but we hit a dead-end pretty quickly.
As a bit of backstory, I have maternal issues. I have trouble having any sort of relationship with women without longing for something more. It's led me to some pretty bad places over the years. Who my T is lends itself really well to this sort of transference. She's just at the right age and all that.
I shared this and she encouraged me to long for her. That's really confusing for me. It's kind of like offering a thirsty person water and then telling them they can't have it. I can't figure out any other reason for this other than she knows she can control our relationship so that's things don't get out of control and she would rather I long for her than someone else that might lead me to another bad place. That's all I got.
I've been dealing with this my whole life and now that I know why I long for these women, it hasn't helped as much as I would have hoped. I want to find the "off" button, but I guess there isn't one.
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