Posted by Susan47 on August 24, 2005, at 0:49:46
In reply to Re:my love for T. » jadah, posted by bird in the sky on August 23, 2005, at 18:42:42
I know and yet I don't know. Because I've felt the same way about this ex-T, I do feel that way still, at times ... but I don't see the difference between what you're feeling and what I'm feeling.. yet you've been physical with yours .. and I'm wondering whether you really did get emotionally close, or whether this is all part of a fantasy, a fantasy of loving your own self and seeing it projected in him .. the loved one. The Love Object .. that's what my therapist has been .. and a subject, also, of my worst fears and feelings about the male gender .. but incredibly, too, I held out hope. That was lovely.
I don't know if I'll ever feel that way again.
I hope, if it ever happens, it's reciprocated.
Because having been here, I never want to do this again.
And I never, ever will.
No matter what.
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