Posted by Deneb on December 8, 2005, at 14:26:17
I just turned 24 yesterday, but I think my mind is more like an 18 year old. I don't feel like an adult. I never feel like a "woman". I feel like a girl. Does anyone else experience this?
I think my development is delayed or something. Are there defined steps for development? I sort of remember something about development in my intro to psychology class. I don't think I've reached the adult phase yet.
I asked my pdoc if I was immature and he told me that he doesn't like to use the word "immature." He said that people have different deficits that they must learn to live with. I think I have a lot of deficits.
I think I need to grow up more. I don't know how to do that. My parents are still very much my parents right now. I'm not independent at all. I still depend on them for everything.
I don't know how to survive out in the real world. In the real world people are expected to be able to do things like call people on the phone and not be anxious about it.
I think on some level I'm actually doing badly in school on purpose because I'm afraid to graduate and have to go out in the real world. Does anyone know what I mean?
The world is so scary. I wish the world were more like the online world. I can talk and be myself online. I'm much more confident online. I would never in a zillion years do something like participate in the small groups thing (see thread about APA meeting) if it weren't for Babble.
I need to find a job, a career. I still don't know what I want to do. I want to work in a lab, but I'm afraid I don't have the experience or training needed. I think I need to do some post graduate training somewhere.
I'm so late in starting life! I can't believe I'm 24 already.
Deneb
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