Posted by B2chica on December 9, 2005, at 11:49:30
In reply to adult onset self injury (long and ***trigger.***), posted by Anneke on December 9, 2005, at 11:15:09
i did start in adolescents but it wasn't that bad and i stopped when i was 18 or 19. i began again a couple years ago in 2003. (i was 30). i'm a cutter and BELIEVE ME i understand those strong....urges. they can just suck you in. its the impulsivity that's so dangerous.
absolutely i think it's this stuff that's coming up that's making you want to cut. I read "bright red scream" also, but i actually liked the book "cutting" better i can't remember the authors name but i think his last name starts with an L. and it has a grey cover.
it doesn't matter why you posted it...i'm really glad you did. You are NOT alone with this. i've been (clean) for about 3 months with no cutting. i'ts taken me a really long time (and many scars) to get to this point...you will too.
and i haven't done the key things but i've thrown myself into the wall and banged my head alot. this is Not a good thing.
You t may do this but tonight i think you should sit down with a pencil and paper and think of the things you can engage in to take your mind off wanting to hurt yourself (painting, drawing, excersizing, journaling, crafts, model cars) something that needs all your focus. next write down the people you can call to talk with about your feelings or to take your mind off things, maybe ask them to come over or you go over there. next if you still want to hurt yourself do the 15 min. thing. Say in 15min if i still feel this way i WILL Self-Injure (SI). then when 15 min is up if you still want to do it again...15 min. do it by minutes, hours, seconds whatever it takes. lastly if you still want to do it, see if you can call your T, or some hotline.
please take care of yourself
and remember writing here no matter what you say...we care about you and want only the best for you.b2c.
btw dr.bob has this thing that if you use double quotes when you're writing names of books and stuff it makes it a link, try it.
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