Posted by LauraBeane on December 16, 2005, at 0:21:28
In reply to Re: Forced distance - *Trigger?*, posted by tarabara on December 15, 2005, at 20:34:28
The psych doc sounds great. Smart & hip, you can't get better than that. No referral, you stumbled on him on your own? Very cool. Maybe a turn of good karma... My therapist is cool too (but that seems to be more common among therapists than psychiatrists? I think). He rejects karma in favor of chaos theory. I'm not convinced.
About the bipolar II, he doesn't think I am but that I'm depressed. The family member is my mom so yeah, it's close. So that was compulsive thinking. Good to know, thanks. I don't have an overeating thing but the opposite.
I give you a lot, a lot of credit for going back into therapy. I can so understand walking out. You are much more educated about therapy than I am and I've been going more than twice as long. I do get freaked out at times and leave voicemails that say things like, "I'm calling to tell you that I want you to leave me alone." (He would never give me his e-mail address, wish I had it but probably a good thing.) right now I've decided that he doesn't care about me at all because of the way he pulled away. I think it's all a construct and he is manipulating me and I am a fool. blah blah blah. . So yes, I have trust issues too. I guess it's gotta build day by day and takes a lot of time. Seems to me that considering what you've been through, it would be cause for concern if you completely trusted him at this early stage of the game... To me the after and the in-between times really hard. It's hard to believe in someone when I can't look him in the eye to see.
I am so sorry about the rape. I am not dealing with that. I wish there was a way I could offer some comfort. It just never should have happened to you.
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