Posted by Tamar on December 30, 2005, at 11:10:12
In reply to Very bad/Very good session, posted by littleone on December 29, 2005, at 15:16:17
Argh! How awful to feel you were holding him up (even though you knew that really you weren’t) and then to arrive and find no one was there! Gosh, I’m surprised you were able to do therapy at all after that! And I know you said you weren’t in the best state…
I remember one time my T was half an hour late for my appointment and by the time he arrived my mind had melted into a little purple puddle in the floor. I pretty much had to wipe it up with an imaginary cloth and shove it in my bag. After he finally arrived he said to me, “You seem very anxious today. Is that normal for you?” I wanted to say, “Well, I thought you’d completely forgotten about me, abandoned me or got fed up with me; of *course* I’m anxious.” But instead I just shrugged and thought of my liquid mind, still in my bag, making my wallet sticky. (Yeah, I’m weird.)
So when I remember how I felt then, I can imagine it must have been absolutely terrifying for you to be locked out. But when he asked about the picture, that was really sweet. And yeah, I know what you mean about talking directly to the young part. I haven’t experienced my parts in quite the same way, but there were times when my T seemed to reach a part of me that I couldn’t reach myself, and the way you describe it, ‘bursting with happiness’: that makes so much sense to me. What a lovely moment. How wonderful for your young part to get his full attention and care like that. It’s very precious, isn’t it?
Tamar
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