Posted by toojane on February 1, 2007, at 15:30:12
In reply to Re: 'Not always a cry for help' - » toojane, posted by Meri-Tuuli on February 1, 2007, at 15:05:00
> Hello! I've never met you before but I'll answer your questions...
Hello back! Thank you so much for answering. I find myself really wanting to discuss these kinds of issues with people but they are not the stuff of typical conversations in real life.
> > But concerning the article though, how does that translate for you in your relationship with any psych professionals?
> Hmm, it makes no difference really. You mean after I've read the article?
> Should you/have you been/are you currently forced into counselling because of your suicidal feelings?
> Nope, never.
I'm sorry. I phrased the questions awkwardly. I was curious if you felt that it was okay for you to be forced into treatment for your suicidal feelings? Is suicide your decision or do others have the right to force you to live? If they do have the right, is there anything you think they should not be allowed to do to keep you alive or is anything and everything okay?
> Um, I don't struggle with it at all. I just think and feel it sometimes and it helps me deal with very negative feelings that engulf me at times. I do imagine doing it, but I just think how nice it'd be, but its like you'd imagine how nice it would be to say, (insert something unobtainable) eg live in a mansion or something. I kinda view it almost as something positive in fact.That is a very interesting relationship to have with your ideation.
> The thing is, I'm also pretty much a hypochrondriac, so you get this incrediable weird feeling of wanting to die and to kill yourself, but at the same time having panic attacks because you've convinced yourself you've got cancer or something. I mean the illogcially is enough to make my brain melt.Is that maybe because you think you are "cursing" yourself? You think by saying you want to die you might give yourself cancer to make it come true?
> Do I make any sense at all? :o)Makes perfect sense to me.
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