Posted by widget on March 19, 2007, at 10:50:48
In reply to Widget, how goes it? » widget, posted by Iwillsurvive on March 18, 2007, at 23:00:52
Hi, thanks for the reply; I really appreciate it. Well, I'm not as "at bottom" as I was when I wrote that post. So, I guess I am surviving. I'm not sure what to say except it will be difficult seeing my therapist again. I will see him in a different way; more a nuts and bolts way. Here I am, fix me, or tell me how to be fixed and I'll move on. It seems less personal,less creative, less interesting, less exciting and more cut and dry. I still feel like giving him my psychology books which I have been reading to try to understand the process I'm going through but what help have they been? And, if he just doesn't have as connected a feeling to me as I to him, well, I realize I can't make someone feel something that is not there. I think I'm just rambling here. But, I so appreciate your concern. There really is no one else to discuss this with as friends seem to have enough difficulty digesting the fact I see a psychiatrist. Isn't that weird? But, with some who I trust, I can see something change in their eyes when I tell them about being in therapy. I don't really know what it means but it just makes me feel more alone. I could certainly not tell them about my deep attachment issues for this psychiatrist. So, I'm still waiting to hear from his office that they have found me a second appointment this week. He seemed to feel it was really important that I come twice perhaps because I was so, so deeply sad, in tears, broken at the end of the session. But, if he can't get the time, oh well. Thanks again, Widget
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