Posted by antigua3 on July 19, 2007, at 10:36:09
In reply to Re: The too good T is too smart too; darn (trigger » antigua3, posted by OzLand on July 19, 2007, at 0:54:18
Thank you, that was helpful as I'm always dealing with this, especially now with my pdoc. It adds a whole new perspective. You've shed s bright light. I've always known that male authority figures have been a problem for me always, and the ways I react (oh I can be so awful; I just told my pdoc the other night you wouldn't believe how much trouble this gave me in college--to the point of being kicked out of class--and not understanding how I was coming across.) I still don't know how I come across, but it's one part anger for sure.
It's difficult because I'm usually a very compatible person and hate to make waves. For me, in part, I challenge them I realize because I want them to take responsibility for things that are wrong (a replacement father thing, I'm sure) and I'll push until they become angry. I thought I was righting injustices, but at the heart of it I guess I'm trying to right my own injustice and lashing out at the wrong people.
I just thought that since my father was such a strict authority that I didn't like to be told what to do, but I didn't relate it specifically to the csa.
so thank you.
But I'm particularly curious about your T's use of the word "insertion." I expect that was deliberate, but check on it. It seems harsh, not in a bad way, but in a very direct way. But it made the connection for you whatever the motive.
(I'm a big word person and I would have had a huge reaction to the word!)Thanks so much. You helped a lot.
antigua
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