Posted by muffled on July 21, 2007, at 23:19:59
In reply to Wanting to run away *trigger* misc. sh*t too, posted by slugdoo on July 21, 2007, at 21:58:23
> Growing up do you remember feeling so lonely and unloved that you wanted to run away or die? Just like you didn't matter to anyone ever. I remember feeling that at even 4 or 5.
*I don't remember much, and this is why I glad I don't. Sorry you had to feel that way :-(
> Now I feel the same because I feel unwanted by others and feel like nobody really cares about me. I feel so alone going through all of these memories. I just want to cry on someone's shoulder but I don't know anyone well enough to do that.**yeah, you likable SD, but I guess we kinda push people away somehow...
> I guess I am on a reading kick lately. I guess I am trying to keep my mind busy, but all I can do is think about the memories. They are losing their intensitiy. I don't know if it is because I am self-flooding myself and they are losing their power, or if I am pushing down the feelings from the memories. I have some weird memories that I am not sure what the signifigance is .**Well I glad memories losing intensity. My T says when memories are exposed to light of day, they lose some of their power...
> I am not sure if any of this means anything or is just a memory of nothing really.**Dunno???
> Plus I am having some very sexual dreams, but they do feel good, not like a bad dream. But they seem VERY real to me. I don't know any of the men though.
**Hmmmmm sex dreams. And nice ones. Well that sounds OK :-)
Take care doo girl.
Muffled
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