Posted by sunnydays on July 24, 2007, at 21:33:54
In reply to Wanting to run away *trigger* misc. sh*t too, posted by slugdoo on July 21, 2007, at 21:58:23
> I guess my name should be trigger because it seem like all my post have been triggers lately.
>**** No.... you're allowed to post whatever you want (within site guidelines of course). People are responsible for keeping themselves safe.
> Growing up do you remember feeling so lonely and unloved that you wanted to run away or die?**** Sort of. I always made it so that my parents would die in a horrible tragedy or something so that I could go live with someone else and be cared for.
Just like you didn't matter to anyone ever. I remember feeling that at even 4 or 5.
**** I'm so so sorry you felt that way. No little kid should ever be made to feel like that.
> Now I feel the same because I feel unwanted by others and feel like nobody really cares about me. I feel so alone going through all of these memories. I just want to cry on someone's shoulder but I don't know anyone well enough to do that.**** ((((((SL)))))) I'm sorry.
> I guess I am on a reading kick lately. I guess I am trying to keep my mind busy, but all I can do is think about the memories. They are losing their intensitiy. I don't know if it is because I am self-flooding myself and they are losing their power, or if I am pushing down the feelings from the memories. I have some weird memories that I am not sure what the signifigance is .
>**** I don't know. I get that feeling sometimes, where if I think about something I start feeling sort of dead inside so the feelings lose their intensity. Is that what you're feeling? Maybe you're dissociating some from the intensity of the emotions, which is a perfectly normal thing to do to protect yourself from being overwhelmed.
Sorry you're having memories. Those can be so hard, even if we don't know if they're important.
sunnydays
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