Posted by muffled on September 4, 2007, at 23:21:09
In reply to Re: tomorrow is the day..., posted by Dory on September 4, 2007, at 22:52:10
> i am still here
> i appreciate the concern* Dory we concerned cuz we care.
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> i saw him today and it wasn't the same. i'm disconnected and he is fallible. i don't feel secure.* I'm not sure wassup w/your T? I have had times of utter disconnection from my T. Usu its cuz I scared and running away.
Its funny how you should say this, cuz i just been going thru a feeling unsafe w/T thing , cuz she fallible...
She sent me an e-mail where she said she is NOT perfect, but we work together, and we learn together.>
> i feel scared and alone.**damn, I hate that alone feeling Dory, not so sure how I get thru it. I can be surrounded by people, but alone...
But it seems to get better from time to time.
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> the session was not a complete waste. i just feel differently now.
> no illusions of care or concern. It's a business. i pay and he listens.
> i was naive and stupid to think otherwise.**Not naive and stupid, but HOPEFUL, and I think thats a beautiful thing. But now that reality has set in, mebbe you can get down to business in T? Good boundaries can chafe, but they can be an asset in many ways too. And I suspect, as T gets to know you, he can't help but care,us babblers do! Even if he carefully don't show it, I bet he does care.
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> this little bird has no one who will wrap it tight
> no one will hold it gently to keep it safe from itself**Ya thats the thing that SUCKS. There has been threads on it. How we goto care for our ownselfs and comfort ourownselves, and how it hurts to realize that...Yup it sucks. But it do get better w/time.
Is there any DBT stuff in your area?
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> i don't know how long i will stay in therapy.
> i feel like i am a "treatment failure"
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**Ya you gonna have to fight me for that title, but I going back to try again...I think.....
My T says I got anxiety over going back to T she suspects, I said if anxiety=scared sh*tless, then i got anxiety.
Don't give up Dory,
You got alot to offer.
Thanks for posting to us so we could know you was OK.
I'm glad your posting.
There's been lotsa good threads lately that are proly useful for you if you got time to read. You not alone.
You fit right in here.
Take specially good care,
Muffled
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