Posted by backseatdriver on May 30, 2008, at 16:28:24
I had a lousy session last week, where I detailed to my T various horrors from my childhood, to which he had little to say, partly because I myself was so detached. How disappointing! But then he turned the conversation to sex, and I felt used. Still do. Like it's for his pleasure, to talk about sex with me. He said I was "hot," he said furthermore that I "liked being hot," etc.
Thing is, I'm totally attracted to him. After I reported a dream to this effect, he told me, "We aren't going to sleep together." I think he wanted to reassure me. But I felt disappointed, partly because he didn't sound the least bit regretful. I hate to admit it, but this was wounding.
Now, he's being seductive. I don't get it.
I've sort of tried to move on, particularly by leaving my feelings about HIM out of the sessions. Yet, he keeps bringing me back to these feelings. It's like he's trying to get me to *give*, to *yield*, to admit how I feel. I would do it, except that I don't understand how it benefits me to be humiliated. What is the therapeutic value of this move? Any thoughts on this?
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