Posted by Lemonaide on August 5, 2008, at 22:33:55
In reply to Re: x » Lemonaide, posted by Dinah on August 5, 2008, at 21:55:12
Thanks for what you think DInah.
I am to tired right now to respond.
All I know is that I feel like I have been thrown away like trash from my old T, he doesn't have to acknowlege his mistakes, or say he is sorry to me, he can just write me off like I didn't exist. I feel he should of at least tried to help me.
I am upset that he doesn't like me anymore,(that really hurts) I am upset that he messed up my therapy, I am upset that I have to pay for his mess up by paying for therapy to resolves his mistakes. It is like he slammed me again.
I took off his name on my blog, i feel that is ever being too nasty, but I am so f*ck*ng angry,. I feel like what happened to me should not be swept under the rug and forgotten.The worst part I still feel him within me, but I am beginning to hate that part of me, I want to cut it out of me. I hate that I can't feel I can trust right now, even my current T. I feel alone and I hate myself right now. I hate who I am and I give up on getting any better because not even my therapist who worked with me for 2 1/2 years likes me. My current T is frusterated at this whole thing. I hate myself so much for all of this, my old T wants to get rid of me because I am nothing but used trash that can't even be recycled. I hate him but I hate myself even more now.
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