Posted by Quintal on September 9, 2008, at 18:46:14
In reply to Re: Something happened today » Quintal, posted by rskontos on September 9, 2008, at 16:25:59
Thank you rsk, you are a very kind person. One of the most likeable traits in my book! I wish there were more people like you in the world.
Yes, I thought he was very brave. I was just stunnned that something real was actually happenning to me that I got caught up in the moment. Maybe focussing too much on myself. I tend to be a bit slow in processing social cues anyway, but I didn't respond at the right time and then the moment was gone. I do feel for him. I just want to let him know it wasn't that bad as it probably felt for him. I'm sure it was actually worse for him because he doesn't know for sure what I was really thinking.
I noticed him on induction day last week. I sort of hoped this would happen, but nothing like this ever has so I had no reason to think it would. Yes, I am interested in him. I suppose we might actually be in the same league in some ways. I just can't believe it's happening, and part of me doesn't want it to be. It wants to stay safe.
I can't seem to think of any outcome that isn't cynical. I suppose one more faliure on top of everything else wouldn't matter, so I should try. I do have real problems with talking to people though. I'm very awkward at the best of times. The hardest thing is not wanting to be a real person and all the obligations that go with it (being bound to reality). Yes, I am very confused.
Thanks rsk!
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