Posted by seldomseen on September 11, 2008, at 17:16:21
In reply to Re: It's Mixed state bipolar, posted by Dinah on September 11, 2008, at 12:49:13
OMG! I'm bipolar!! - That's pretty much how I've been walking around all day. OMG! I'm BIPOLAR!
You guys are right, of course, it makes absolutely no difference whatsoever what they call me. I'm still me - although right now I'm a little jumbled.
I've been calmer today, haven't cried at completely inappropriate times and the klonopin had reduced the constant grinding, pushing and irritability. I'm still sensitive to sounds though and I'm glad the lab was quiet today.
I spoke with my T today and we made plans to speak again tomorrow. Regardless of what he had to say about it, it was so nice to simply be heard and he re-iterated that he was hearing me loud and clear. I'm not crazy and I'm not going crazy. OMG! I'm BIPOLAR! :)
We'll discuss treatment options at our next session I'm sure and develop strategies to help me from getting here again. He's on board now and I trust that he can fix, or at least improve, anything.
He'll also understand my reticence and grief about sharing a diagnosis with my mother. Maybe we can call it something else just for the time being.
I will add however, there is a significant upside to the way I feel. I feel more creative than I have ever felt in my life. This past month I've been noting connections between things at work that no one had ever seen before. Of course I'm too lethargic to ACT on those connections, but that would just be having my cake and eating it too.
Thanks for your kind kind words.
Seldom
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