Posted by seldomseen on September 18, 2008, at 17:21:21
In reply to Re: It's Mixed state bipolar » seldomseen, posted by lucie lu on September 12, 2008, at 12:17:39
No, mixed state bipolar has not been the easiest thing to deal with, but the brain is always working, working.
I think just by sheer volume the number of ideas that I come up with some of them are going to be good.
To toot my own horn, I've always been a very creative person - almost driven to do stuff, whether it be photography, writing, music or what have you. As my therapist is quick to point out, I am a convincing actress as well.
I'm a scientist, and believe it or not that is a very creative job. If you sat around all day NOT think about new stuff, well you would be out of a job that's for sure.
I think it is quite likely that I inherited bipolar characteristics from my mother. Yet, I never really saw anything positive from her, but the memory is funny that way. She can barely even match her clothes. Maybe she just never made the effort.
It seems as though she was either acutely suicidal, or very very very irritable, irrational and paranoid.
Of course, I had some breaks she did not. Genes from a whole different family that may mitigate what is happening with me. I think I'm just innately smarter than she is and I've had more life experiences and exposures. I have a real knack for spotting "normal" and emulating that, which she does not.
One funny thing my therapist said was that "I was definately more bipolar than most". Indicating that he too sees some mitigation in what is going on with me.
seldom.
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