Posted by DAisym on January 23, 2009, at 17:17:05
In reply to Trigger**Trigger**Trigger, posted by TherapyGirl on January 23, 2009, at 8:39:37
Sometimes it helps to just let yourself imagine what the future will be without you. Walk down the path - what will you miss? What are your favorite flowers in the spring? What do you usually do at Easter that no one else will? How about the birthdays that are coming up - milestones for anyone? What about that special dish only you can make just right?
Is there one small thing you can think about that will give you something to look forward to tomorrow or next week? A book coming out, a movie or a TV show? Anything that will give you a little respite from the relentless pressure to check out.
I think in many ways suicide is seductive and a dangerous spiral. Speaking for myself, I get lured in with thoughts of resting - that it will all finally, mercifully, be over. I won't have to battle my own shame or keep the secret anymore. But the truth is, a failed attempt creates even more of this - and a success hurts people that I never want to hurt.
Treat yourself like you are ill - rest, eat and sleep. Try to just take it an hour at a time. I hope you feel better soon.
poster:DAisym
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