Posted by TherapyGirl on January 25, 2009, at 16:34:12
In reply to Re: Trigger**Trigger**Trigger » TherapyGirl, posted by Dinah on January 24, 2009, at 14:56:54
I'm still here. Today was slightly better, if by better you mean that I haven't balled all day. But I'm still taking the xanax and there've been a couple of close calls.
I don't mean to upset anyone or make anything worse for anybody else either, but I'm just not sure how many more times I can go through this crap. I'm so tired of it and seemingly have little to no control over it. This is basically an agreement I have with my T -- that *I* decide when I'm done. This may be it.
The friend I was horrible to is still holding me at arm's length. And I wasn't that horrible -- I was a smart a** to her and was spiraling down quickly without realizing it. It makes me wonder about the different response I'd get if I had a heart attack or something. No one knows what to do with mental illness, still.
My T called me last night and said, "I wish I could make this all better for you. I'm sorry I can't." It makes me sad.
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