Posted by mila on May 8, 2001, at 11:56:59
In reply to Re: other boats bobbing nearby, posted by Doo on May 8, 2001, at 10:54:31
hi,
===my defensive patterns, my armour
what defensive patterns? what threatens you?
===is it really the truth?
yes, half of it.
===I wish a car hits me when I cross the street.
Quit crossing the street. Do Not Cross. What you are reaching for is not there. Stay on THIS side, until you realize. Or, better to say, stay right in the middle of your road voluntarily, and get used to other cars honking and drivers cursing, or offering you help, or respectfully streaming around you. Be bold. that seems to be the message of this death wish.
===drive into a big pole while driving at 130 km/h on the autoroute.
come in touch, or start thinking the opposite, or come to standstill when you realize you are moving that fast along AUTOroute. in other words, stop being self-sufficient, when it feels that wrong that the "death at the pole" thought enters your mind. think otherwise. that seems to be the message of this death wish.
===life is not on my side. And the rest follows: I got to act.
Do you hear yourself, Doo? you are uttering the Truth here. Life is not ON YOUR SIDE. Life is INSIDE. You've got to act. number all the things, Life is, and allow yourself to experience them, go slow, one at a time, do not binge on life, you migt find it too good to be true, and throw out in disbelief. Act as a living being. Lie consciously, cheat with full awareness, be truthful when you can afford it, display what you know, and let others judge you, etc.
===You mean like in psychoanalysis?
No, i mean like for real. you wanna say something to them. say it to them, do not behave like the person is not there, or like they will understand every word and sentence. Tailor your messages to their size and emotional state. If you notice that they are kinda deaf, speak louder, or more clearly, if you notice they are TOTALLY deaf, leave. find someone who has their hearing intact.
best
mila
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