Posted by omega man on June 9, 2002, at 19:08:38
In reply to Afraid to get better?, posted by SusanG on June 7, 2002, at 13:33:59
it not being afraid of getting better..I think you've let somebodies cynicsm get to you...its much more complicated....your life now is who you are...so how are you going to stay better...what if the medication poops out ?
so you dropped all your friends ..you suddenly got well...
I suffer from Seasonal depression which is very interesting for getting insight into the process ..I know its going to happen...I know when its going to happen..I know when i'll come out of it...and i've noticed this..about march I start feeling high and happy..and start fighting with to be free from the misery I attract in the winter..(people usually) i'm like a rocket, because I know I won't go back into depression for 6 months..and I just let people know that...
I used to think I was BP//but thats not what i'm trying to tell you..before I had it figured the seasons were doing my head in..I had periods where I knew I was feeling better..but had all the dread of change you talked about...
thats a sensible dread...to throw away support, friends, habits that protect you..would be crazy if you don't know if you'll slide back or your prozac poops or life throws so much CR%P that you get hit right back to psychosis zone...
what you say makes perfect sense...unless you have a depression which comes in and out like clockwork you need to keep your toe in these deeper waters which is part of the structure of who you are.
poster:omega man
thread:25136
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20020531/msgs/25174.html