Posted by dave40252 on June 14, 2002, at 9:42:05
In reply to Re: Afraid to get better?, posted by Cecilia on June 13, 2002, at 2:40:40
I don't think i am afraid to get better, but this thread has given me things to think about - the comment, "I`ve forced myself to do many of these things over the years, but I think that deep down there`s a sense that as long as I`m depressed I`m not REALLY doing them, just going through the motions, so it doesn`t hurt as much if I fail.." has a familiar feel to it -
since begining treatment i have had intermittent brief periods of time when i have felt good - like how "normal" people must feel - when it happens i sure wish i could hold on to it. But there is a place i get to when i am on my way down where i almost feel like i am welcoming back the darkness - its almost as if i am mentally doing what i can to hasten the slide - and then that goes away when i start hurting real bad, then i just want to get better again
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