Posted by Bookgurl99 on June 12, 2002, at 20:55:56
In reply to Afraid to get better?, posted by SusanG on June 7, 2002, at 13:33:59
On getting well:
I've been rebuilding my life from what I lost due to this struggle. (Needing to complete incomplete coursework, arrange payment with hospitals, find a job,reconnect with friends, etc.). Sometimes I do great -- I wake up and cross things off my to-do list, follow a structure, even exercise and eat perfectly. Then other days -- like today -- I am a lazy layabout. I try to blame it on the heat or other things, but it's just more an inertia that develops from being out of practice of being well. But I find that if I can just get my morning started off right -- get out of bed on time, follow my 'healthy morning routine' then my brain is set for productivity.
Meanwhile, though, I want to beat myself up for taking a day "off," even though when I was well I would have done this every once in a while without seeing it as evidence of my dysfunctionality.
Aren't mentally ill people allowed to chill out in front of MtV with frozen yogurt too?
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