Posted by FlintCassidy on December 10, 2003, at 6:02:53
In reply to Re: Adult ADD and drug abuse » TRACYANDDEANA, posted by squids on December 6, 2003, at 17:51:38
Squids, I had a childhood much like yours. I never thought anybody experienced the same kind of daydreaming/non-regular-ADD thought pattern as me. I have always been a MAJOR daydreamer. All through school I would become very bored with the subject matter (unless of course it was tech or soemthing similiar) and would begin to space out. I never had a problem sitting still or keeping attention as long as the content was somewhat interesting. I was never officially diagnosed as ADD, but always thought that some part of the disorder might be true for me. At the age of 14 I discovered self-medication, and finally felt happy about myself, until of course the drugs and booze stopped working. I have always been my own worst enemy. I thrive on others validation, but only recently became aware of the exact degree to which this validation drives my daily life. At 16, I joined the ranks of the sober crowd, and remained so until approximately 6 months ago. Since then I have tried every drug I could get my hands on. There have been many good times, and a few VERY BAD times. I don't think this post has been very helpful for you, so I guess what I am saying is that YOUR post has given me some sort of consolation that I am not alone in this crazy world. I am a professional internet programmer and have no desires in destroying my life. I am generally okay these days, and believe that I do not have to become sober again in order to be a successful, well balanced individual. However, I do believe that this other form of ADD, or the low self esteem issue at least, should be given some focus. Thank you for your honesty and desire to help yourself.
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