Posted by Festus on December 18, 2003, at 22:26:29
In reply to Re: Adult ADD and drug abuse, posted by FlintCassidy on December 10, 2003, at 6:02:53
One of the worst things about being ADD and going through childhood un-diagnosed,is the feeling you have growing up,thinking you are "bad"or"Don,t mind well".The teachers at school told me and my parents,I was that way.I,d always have bad conduct marks on my report card,which lead to bad marks on me!(courtesy of my Dad and his belt).When you grow up like that,you feel like a weirdo or a convict,or a rebel.You know deep down ,you don,t"think"you,re a "Bad Kid",but you just ain,t sure,cause you,re still just a kid!After you grow up and try Drugs and Drink,get into trouble with the law,and all that stuff,it,s like you,re trying to live like you,ve been told what you are:Bad,Naughty,a Rebel.Finally,somewhere along the road,if you are lucky,a good doctor will finally intervene and suggest tests and the results come back and they talk to you and,Guess what,Mom and Dad and all the Teachers and everyone else:I got a Disorder!I,m just a bit mentally out-of-synch!There,s this medicine they give you and,Kabam!!You finally see the world and,most importantly,YOURSELF for what you REALLY ARE!Just a grown kid that nobody could understand cause they needed medicine.It sure made me feel better about things,after going through 30 years of all that crap,and then find out I just needed some medicine.That,s the problem,though it,s a huge relief,you now find that in order to feel normal,you must take carefully prescribed doses of highly addictive pills without getting"in trouble",shall we say,so,that brings us to a decision:Can we take the meds right,or not?The true Acid Test.I find if I take my Dexedrine 3 weeks on and 1 week off,that works as good as I can get it.I,ve been successful for several years,and have not really gotten a tolerance or "addictive feeling",I call it,but the 1 week breaks the cycle(for me,anyway).I,ll take 3 good ones for 1 "so-so"one in order to maintain a decent level of well-being.It sure beats 4 weeks a month of the other way of life.Happy Holiday,Folks!Festus
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