Posted by AMD on April 24, 2005, at 17:20:21
In reply to Re: Am I Beyond Recovery?, posted by thinkfast on March 13, 2005, at 22:27:51
Folks,
I'm always reading about "long term" "heavy," "moderate," or "recreational use" of cocaine but rarely are these terms quantified. Anyone have the details of what exactly each of these is defined as in the literature?
I've done cocaine (~gram each time) five times over 9 weeks, and I'm wondering if this would be enough to effect permanent changes to brain neurotransmitter levels and/or makeup. All times I was also drinking heavily.
I am on hour ~90 post my last binge, and I am feeling unable to concentrate (as usual). I know it's just a waiting game, but I always have that feeling that this time I did it, this time is the one I won't recover from. But given my level each time, is this realistic? Am I freaking out over what might constitute recreational or very light use (at least if I were to stop now, which, unfortunately, I'm having trouble doing).
I am sooooo spaced out today. I feel depressed, unable to focus, just horrid.
As usual, thanks.
amd
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