Posted by AMD on August 13, 2005, at 17:45:48
In reply to Re: question re: memory recovery » AMD, posted by AuntieMel on August 12, 2005, at 12:04:39
Thank you for the words of support. It means a lot.
Three meetings in two days... I could see myself expanding my network of "clean" friends very quickly. I need that.
These first days are the hardest, as I feel so depressed and generally under the weather (not to mention that my mind is terribly slow right now, my vocabularly exceedingly lacking, and my general problem solving skills seemingly erradicated!). But I am hoping that in a few days I'll begin feeling better. Same pattern as always, I guess: the feeling that "this time I've done it." I'm hoping that just one more time my mind will pull out of this slump, and in days, weeks, years I'll have the cognition back and the experiences triggering its decline fully in my past.
It's definitely cumulative. Looking back to February, when my decline began, I feel so much less interested in life, so much softer in the mind. Is this going to ever reverse itself?
I do have a couple more questions: I got "looney" during these drinking/drugging spells, most recently waking up in someone's apartment vestibule, half naked, delirious and confused. Today the terrible fear that I've "lost it" and that I'll send up in a mental institution. Is that so? Or was this mania and/or cocaine psychosis ignited during the binge.
Also, I'd still love more information on supplements that will hasten recovery. I'm taking the B's. Any others?
Thanks again, and much hugs.
amd
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