Posted by AMD on August 16, 2005, at 9:08:27
In reply to Re: question re: memory recovery » AMD, posted by Phil on August 15, 2005, at 19:09:58
I am feeling so physically ill today! I think I must still be recovering from the last binge. This will take how long to resolve again? Up to 96 hours? It's been almost a week.
I contemplated today how my "occasional" habit quickly became a heavy, weekly habit. It's scary. The word "addict" came to mind: perhaps not as bad as some, but certainly excessive. And then I thought, maybe I'm past the point of no return. Maybe my days of hope, intelligence, happiness are all in the past. Six months ago I was writing creatively; thinking clearly; excited to be in the city and back home. And in six months I sit here today, exhausted, murky headed, completely incapacitated creatively... and wondering, like I said, if I'll ever get back to that place I was six months ago. I am so ashamed of myself.
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