Posted by cockeyed on September 5, 2005, at 0:33:59
I'm an alcoholic. I stayed sober for ten yrs.
But these days I like getting wasted on cheap vodka. Sober, I'm a pain in the *rse: loaded, I'm a pain in the *ss.
But the *rse side of me is a pain in the *ss.
The *ss side of me is, well, happier. Whatever that is.
Sober life sucks. inebriated life is a party.
It's become a serious problem with my family.
I stop drinking, then i start again. Because I feel good, rather than serious. If I could be delerious I'd be ....well, me.
If this sounds like horseshit: it is. I can deal with this world drunk. But sober...Xrist I
don't know why, but life seems to be hell.
Booze removes the slog thru the sh*t and I'd
like to be rid of it. And my answer is a coupla shots.
As noted this is B.S. I should stay sober.
That said, I can't.
I'll try A.A again, but the god squad makes me take a walk. And blah, blah, blah. I'd go on and on. And on and on.
It pisses me off but I like being drunk.
cockeyed
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