Posted by sabrina0805 on January 17, 2006, at 14:09:27
In reply to sinking, posted by NikkiT2 on January 15, 2006, at 14:03:32
Nikki - how this resonated with me. I went through more hell that I could wish on anyone when I gave up smoking just before my wedding in 2004. I gave up because "I HAD TO". My husband, a 2-a-day-smoker hadn't smoked in months, and I just could not go though with my wedding with the "hassle" of smoking. So I gave up - because I HAD to, but not because I really wanted to. this lasted just short of a year.
Through no real fault of my own (I hope I am not looking for excuses), I started again, whilst undergoing ECT. I have no recollection of this. Nevetheless - I smoked for several months before I decided, all my myself, that I could not handle the pressures of smoking anymore. And so I gave up - on 5 October 2005. Not a day goes by that I do not crave for a smoke.
I cannot remember a stronger feeling that wanting to sleep, and wanting it to be over with!!!
My heart goes out to you!! And I wish you all the strength I possibly could!!! I wish I could say more to inspire you, but I know how cr*ppy it is, and how tough it is. And I know, oh how I know, that it seems that so few understand.
((Nikki))
Sabrina
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