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Posted by NikkiT2 on January 15, 2006, at 14:03:32
Still not smoking.. 2 weeks tomorrow.
But damn. The urges have mainly passed. I went out wednesday night with two friends who are smokers, and it was fine.. I did fancy a ciggie with them, but I didn't *need* one..
But.. but.. my sleep is not settling down. I am having *horrible* dreams when I do sleep, and only really getting about 3 hours of nearly decent sleep anight. The lack of sleep, conbined with how horrible the dreams are are causing me to sink.. and I'm sinking fast. I am getting more and more depressed.. I'm finding work almost impossible - but because its "only cigarettes" I have given up, I'm receiving very little support (considering I work in a drug service, this is rather annoying).
I'm trying to do things to reward myself, and cheer myself up.. but most of those things are simply making me feel worse. I'm buying a car (nothing special, just a 5 year old or so used one), but thats making me so stressed out its unbelievable.. EVERYONE has their opinions, and not just "reccomendations", but "you musts".. my mum says I mustn't buy in London and must buy in her area - which in one way is sensible, as they are a bit cheaper and being a small town, less likely to be ripped off - but its also 2 hours away and as I don't have a car at the moment, is public transport which I am having real problems with. Also it means seeing her partner who I am growing to hate more and more each time I visit.
Oh.. I want this over. I want to take a magic pill that stops it all. I don't want to go to work tomorrow (tomorrow I *have* to.. but the rest of the week I don't want to).. I want a lovely car to just turn up and remove the hassle of finding one.. and most of all.. I WANT TO SLEEP.. and when i do sleep, I don't want my friends dying, london blowing up, my husband having affairs etc etc..
I'm hating this. Hating.
Nikki xx
Posted by verne on January 15, 2006, at 15:07:35
In reply to sinking, posted by NikkiT2 on January 15, 2006, at 14:03:32
Have you tried magnesium? This has worked wonders for me. I'm currently taking a citrate powder but plan to try glycinate soon since it is more sedating. Might help with nightmares.
Magnesium is making my recovery easier after some recent alcohol binges. I think it would help with any sort of withdrawal.
Verne
Posted by James K on January 15, 2006, at 18:39:10
In reply to sinking, posted by NikkiT2 on January 15, 2006, at 14:03:32
Just some support here. Tobacco is one of the hardest things to quit. Be proud of yourself.
Maybe it will help to keep in mind that the depression you are feeling is legitimate response to changing your body chemistry and habits.
Like "It feels like the world sucks because I quit smoking and I'm not sleeping well" instead of "the world sucks".
I'm not accusing you of having a bad attitude, so don't get me wrong. This is just something I'm working on as I've quit drinking for about a month and my thoughts get hard to deal with.
I just reread your post, and I'm not sure I said anything you didn't kind of say yourself, so just take the support part of this. Taking care of your health is one of the good things in your life right now.
hang in there,
James K
Posted by sabrina0805 on January 17, 2006, at 14:09:27
In reply to sinking, posted by NikkiT2 on January 15, 2006, at 14:03:32
Nikki - how this resonated with me. I went through more hell that I could wish on anyone when I gave up smoking just before my wedding in 2004. I gave up because "I HAD TO". My husband, a 2-a-day-smoker hadn't smoked in months, and I just could not go though with my wedding with the "hassle" of smoking. So I gave up - because I HAD to, but not because I really wanted to. this lasted just short of a year.
Through no real fault of my own (I hope I am not looking for excuses), I started again, whilst undergoing ECT. I have no recollection of this. Nevetheless - I smoked for several months before I decided, all my myself, that I could not handle the pressures of smoking anymore. And so I gave up - on 5 October 2005. Not a day goes by that I do not crave for a smoke.
I cannot remember a stronger feeling that wanting to sleep, and wanting it to be over with!!!
My heart goes out to you!! And I wish you all the strength I possibly could!!! I wish I could say more to inspire you, but I know how cr*ppy it is, and how tough it is. And I know, oh how I know, that it seems that so few understand.
((Nikki))
Sabrina
Posted by NikkiT2 on January 17, 2006, at 16:45:05
In reply to Re: sinking » NikkiT2, posted by sabrina0805 on January 17, 2006, at 14:09:27
I don;'t know how to deal with it anymore.
I really really don't. I don't think I can. I don't know what to do.. I'm losing it so badly..
nikki
Posted by sabrina0805 on January 18, 2006, at 11:22:32
In reply to Re: sinking » sabrina0805, posted by NikkiT2 on January 17, 2006, at 16:45:05
I understand and I wish there was more I could do.
My thoughts are with you Nikki
Sabrina
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