Posted by IsoM on April 29, 2002, at 17:59:21
In reply to LSD and Antidepressants.., posted by jay on April 26, 2002, at 18:20:56
Jay, I read your post earlier but didn't feel ready to comment - today I feel strong enough to mentally compose what I'd like to say.
You're probably young enough to want to have some extra fun at these concerts - and I understand as I did the whole lot when young & silly. It never occured to me then that any of this could actually alter my DNA or seriously affect my body chemistry. Hey, I never asked questions - just took the stuff & enjoyed.
I can't say how many times I dropped acid - not like Leary but I've done lots - mescaline, STP, MDA, speed (once only) & all the hash & weed there was. Many days, I was stoned fromwaking till sleep. Strangely, I think I've come out of it all unscathed. (yeah, I know I have problems but they were there before I took drugs.)
But of all the drugs I took, I still remember my favourite - speed. It was because it alone felt SO SO GOOD, that I was scared to ever take it again as I knew it was highly addictive. Why was speed my favourite? Cause it was the only one that made me feel "normal". I felt focused & clear-headed on it. Now that I'm a lot older, the clear-headed, focused mental state is the one I prefer. It was the only time that I felt like I was in control of myself totally. I'd rather enjoy myself now with my full faculties, not fuzzed out. Yeah, the hallucinations were awfully pretty, & the perspective on things was mind-blowing, but I can do all that now ('cept the hallucinations) without drugs.
As all the others have said, the setting, the moods & company of your companions, & your own mental state is everything. Screw up one of those & a happy high can become a real 'bummer' in no time at all.
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