Posted by felixbabble on August 27, 2005, at 22:47:49
In reply to Re: Terrible Feelings » felixbabble, posted by Declan on August 27, 2005, at 18:33:50
I don't even know where to post. I just want some advice. It so hard not having anyone to relate. No matter how I try to explain the situation to people friends and family, they never understand, to no fault of thier own.
I am going to see a T for the first time in a while next time. The first ones I saw were a joke, as you could read in my first post.
When the ask "Have you ever had suicidal thoughts" I will say yes. When they ask, have ou ever thought about how? I dont know if I will tell them the truth, that yes I have thought about how. I dont want to get locked up in a psych ward at a hospital or something.
I can't sleep I am on restoril 30mg now and It doesnt make me sleep, I fight it, becaue I dont want to experience another day, and if i sleep its like it starts all over.
It hurts and I feel like there is nothing I can do. I have no faith in drugs anymore.
I was on seroquel( spelled wrong in my last post) and I hated it, it made me feel worse and groggy.
Is this the rest of my life? Like this?
I think of why not to end it. but the reason are always because I couldnt stand the thought of how hurt my family would be, but thats really the only reason.
It hurts and I am lost
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