Posted by marleenm on August 28, 2005, at 17:06:55
In reply to Terrible Feelings, posted by felixbabble on August 27, 2005, at 18:03:27
Sometimes it is hard to get stable on a med. It takes trying different meds at different dosages to finally find the one that works for you. What works for me doesn't necessarily work for you. I have felt exactly how you feel, you are not alone. Alot of us have gone through or are going thru the same despair and sadness. The nice thing is that it will not be permanent. I am stable on my prozac and lithium but it tooks a couple years of trying different things to finally get to where I am at. I felt hopeless and suicidal at one point but what kept me going was that things do get better, that I would find the right mix of meds, and that life is worth living. I have been on my meds for 14 yrs now and doing well. Yes I have periods during the year where I am forelorned like you but I know that it will pass. You need to be your own advocate, keep trying different meds and maybe even a different doctor. I did whatever I could to get where I am at today. I am bi polar and I have the manic episodes followed by the downs, but what my meds have done is to bring the hughs and lows alot closer than they were so they weren't so high and so low. And suicide is not worth it. There is help out there. Just hang on. You are not alone.
> I posted a few days ago but got no reply.
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> I am terribly depressed, I have had few "high" feelings but none for a few weeks. I am totally hopeless. I have had professional care, sorta, for the past year.
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> I have been on Lamictal for most of the last year, currently taking 200mg. I was on celexa and didnt feel it did anything for me. I was also on serequel for sleep but it made me feel groggy and didnt even make me sleep that well.
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> I have now started taking Restoril (For a week so far) for sleep, but it does not seem to work. I am
> also starting Effexor on Monday.
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> I have a final next week, and I really don't care at all. If I fail I may get booted out of school, and I really don't care.
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> I have feelings some times of why go on, whats the point? Sometimes I think I should end it, sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me.
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> I really can't se anytype of future at all.
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> Has anyone else had a situation like this? or these feelings.
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> Here is the post that I didnt get a reply to, I posted it twice on the same day in "newbies" and here in babble, the only response I got was to the one in "newbies" telling me it was moved to babble. So now its in here twice.
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> http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20050821/msgs/546924.html
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poster:marleenm
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