Posted by Racer on September 25, 2005, at 20:39:19
In reply to Never Enough, posted by 10derHeart on September 25, 2005, at 16:37:37
I don't know if this would help you, but I've found that choosing to have a reasonable sized portion of a goodie really helps me limit the amount I eat. I know, from an anorexic that sounds beyond sick, but what I mean is that my "anorexic" ice cream bowls were three scoops of ice cream -- the scoop I used was one of those cookie dough scoops, the kind that holds about a tablespoon of dough to make your cookies the same size? It was hard as nails not to go and have another bowl after the first one, as you can imagine. Now, though, when I make my bowl of ice cream, using a normal sized scoop and about one and a half to two scoops, I'm fully satisfied by it.
Same if I make a cake: if I try to have a "tiny sliver" of cake, it's not satisfying, and I find myself heading back for "another tiny sliver" and probably have as much or more than if I had just cut a 'normal' sized piece in the first place.
I think my real point, though, is that if you consider yourself to be disgusting because you're eating 'too much' or anything like that, I'll bet that you're also kinda punishing yourself through this eating. "If I weren't so disgusting, I wouldn't do this. I'm so disgusting that I may as well eat that ice cream, just to prove how disgusting I am." Maybe if you could change that sort of self-flagellation, all this would improve? Maybe saying something like, "I am a caring, considerate person who likes ice cream. Today I would like a bowl of ice cream, so I will have it. I like myself so much that I will give myself what I like." What do you think?
I hope I'm not overstepping the bounds here, by the way. A lot of what I've written is the sort of thing that I do to myself, so all of it may be nothing more than projection.
Oh, another thing to consider: do you think that you're trying to "fill up" because you're actually hungry? I know, that's a crazy idea, but I have been finding that when I try to meet my meal plan, instead of making excuses to restrict, I don't have the same kind of cravings for goodies, and am much more easily satisfied. The key, according to my nutritionist, is not to let myself get too hungry. When I try to do what she has assigned me -- eat about every two and a half to three hours -- I don't have the same cravings for treats, and I don't feel nearly so out of control when I do eat. Just another thought.
I hope something in there helps you. I know how [expletive deleted]-ty I feel when I get into that out of control feeling with food.
And I'm sorry your T hasn't been more helpful with this. I hope you find your answers soon.
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