Posted by smokeymadison on May 2, 2004, at 18:53:25
In reply to Re: anxious my therapist will stop seeing my poten » smokeymadison, posted by Aphrodite on May 1, 2004, at 12:40:30
my therapist beleives that i won't be well until i accept God back into my life. this is all right with me b/c i accept that i need a religion and i can't get rid of Christianity so it is best for me to just embrace it.
the reason i can't is that i feel like it would be giving into a male authority. a big part of me is rebellious. to accept Christianity fully would be to give in, to adhere to what my dad (a pastor) and my therapist want for me to do. i can't do that. i wish i could accept God as female, that would certainly help. i have been abused by men in the past and it is just a big issue for me to submit to men.
if i can get the guts up to say so, i will talk with my T about my anxiety over him dumping me as a client. it is going to be very hard. but i know i have to talk about it. maybe it will prevent it from happening?
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