Posted by B2chica on July 20, 2004, at 13:03:34
In reply to recovered memories...?, posted by pretty_paints on July 20, 2004, at 12:07:24
> So yeh...
> 1-Has anyone felt in a similar situation to me?a little bit.
>>2-What was the outcome, did you recover any memories or did you come to realise it wasnt linked to a particular event?
sorry, have to give a history first.
last couple years have been pretty crazy, last summer i experiences two months of Horrible depression, then mania shot in spades went to doc and he Dx with bipolar, i think the things happening sort of "kick-started" these extreme rollercoasters. i have had them when i was younger too but maybe not quite lasting as long as they did.
anyhow, was Dx with Bipolar2 in oct. and adhd in feb., in march i ended up in the hospital for 2 'lovely' weeks. it was here that they told me to get a T appt. so i did (per order of Hosp).
Now, i had this one memory that i thought, well while i'm here i should talk about it...i couldn't and couldn't, but by just going there and him asking some questions i would go home and have delayed breakdowns, this is where the memory thing comes in. Even though i didn't remember these things i started having "visuals"-i think same as flashbacks starting to happen. some i was as old as 15. Things i wish to god i couldn't see right now. but when these 'visuals' came up i couldn't make them go away for anything. i still haven't talked about them and not sure when i can but....to make a long story short, once i started therapy, i started to have these flashback, visual, memory things come to me -never when i'm with my T of course its always when i'm alone, and get freaked out about them.> 3-If you did recover memories: did you have ANY clue AT ALL that you had been through a bad experience, or were you completely blank on it?
NO CLUE, i Completely forgot about them!! but once i saw the pictures...i feel, i think in my heart i know their real. cuz i have emotions come back with them and sometimes even smells.
> 4-Are there any clues to look out for?
i'm not sure about any clues and i'm no expert in these things but i would say that try to touch on a variety of subjects in therapy, if you have these, something will trigger them. also if there's a chunk of time that you can not remember anything about you should maybe dig into that...but ask your T first, you don't want to go there if you're not ready. I don't want anyone to go over the edge cuz of anything i've said, remember i'm NO PSYCHOLOGIST person.
> 5-How do these recovered memories come back to you? Through dreams? Flashbacks? During therapy?i think dreams maybe kick start some. flashbacks yes. and Dang it all, Never during therapy...i'm always delayed and i need him SO badly when these come...i wish i could control that if nothing else. However, some people definatly get them during therapy because of discussions and such.
However, i would try to get leveled on medications first and remember the first one may not be the golden egg you're looking for. you may have to try different dosages or diffent med/combos and such. please give yourself time and take care of yourself.
-and Most importantly - trust your instincts. you know yourself best.take care.
B2c.
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