Posted by shortelise on September 11, 2004, at 13:31:05
In reply to How to respond to this?, posted by Klokka on September 10, 2004, at 21:44:17
Klokka, who isn't annoying sometimes?
How many people have you worked with, gone to school with, sat next to in a restaurant that have made you want to slap them?
I felt the same way you do, and I figured out what it was that made me have that behaviour. I felt small, insignifigant, ugly and stupid so I went out of my way to act big, important, attractive and intelligent. That's obnoxious, MY personal variety of obnoxious.
Once I began to understand that the kind of treatment I liked from others is the way I should treat them, I became less obnoxious, less annoying.
And as I began to treat people with kindness and respect, I found that they treated me the same, and when they didn't, I knew it was about them and not about me.
I am telling you this to explain that I had to understand where it comes from, that my family was screwed up, and I was the scapegoat, according to them the problem was me, not anyone else. When anything was wrong, it was because of something I had done - or so I began to think after being blamed so many times. Then it became that I was crazy, mentally off. No one but me.
This extended into the rest of my life, so that if someone at Macdonald's treated me with a sneer, I thought I somehow deserved that sneer and reacted with arrogance and ignorance.
I hope this translates into something that makes sense for you.
ShortE
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